The hardest part of this journey was realizing how deeply the conditioning lived inside of me, how it had shaped my thou...

The hardest part of this journey was realizing how deeply the conditioning lived inside of me, how it had shaped my thoughts, my reactions, even the way I perceived myself. It was so normalized that I couldn’t see it at first. Everything around me reinforced a version of womanhood that was controlled, measured, careful not to take up too much space and not to speak too much truth. When I began to trust my intuition more than logic, when I allowed myself to feel deeply and move from that place, I started connecting to an intelligence way more powerful than I could've ever imagined. In this breakthrough though, I was questioning my own sanity, because the world wasn't ready for meeting me at that level. What hurt the most was not the judgment or not fitting in, but how quickly I doubted myself because of it. The awakening wasn’t glamorous. It was confronting the quiet ways I had abandoned my own feminine nature just to feel safe. Choosing to trust her again, even when it meant standing alone for a while, was the greatest initiation.